What’s the state of your mind?
If you’d ask me, I can boldly say I’m at peace.
No, I didn’t get a new wig, nor was I selected for that three-month internship I’ve been so hyped about. Infact, I got the break up mail two days ago, or three. I don’t remember. I’ll check my mail later.
So. Why do I feel at peace?
It’s because on nights like this, it’s the little things that matter.
Little things like being graded 80/100 for a task I did in a rush.
Little things like my tutor commenting ‘you did good work’
Little things like my brother handing me a sachet of Munch It.
Little things like knowing I’ll ace the presentation I have with my group members the next day.
(Yes, my confidence on this one is so high, and I don’t think I’ll panic tomorrow.
I’ll be speaking to humans, not two-horned deities)
You probably think I’m psyching myself up for what’s to come but that’s not even true.
Okay, what if it’s true? Who made you the judge?
Nights like this one, I’m just at peace.
I love the way I’m feeling tonight and I had to write about it.
For someone who’s constantly on the edge, worrying about what I could have done better three months ago, why my sister hasn’t reached out to me since Monday, for someone like me, who is constantly over running my mind, I am at peace tonight.
And I love this feeling so much!
Thank you for coming to my Ted Writing. I shall now proceed to pick up my current read:
An Unsual Grief by Yewande Omotoso
Please, clap for me nau…
