You know the self doubts that come with 3am? Okay, currently having one right now..

Sometimes, most times, I feel like I’m not enough, like I’m wasting my time, wasting my life and truly, I seek ideas in my head, what can I do to be great, because really, I want to make a lot of money from this life.

I want to love but at the same time, it feels like it’s getting in the way, I feel so choked and I want out again.

Maybe it’s wrong to live by feelings but I guess I’ve been all my life. There’s that large part of me that wants acceptance, wanting to be loved by many, by all seems unattainable. So I’ve got people in my life who I just want to please, I do things and think in my head if they’ll consider it right or not.

Whoever you see me to be today, I helped myself and some other people helped me too, people who never shared blood with me.

One day, I’ll be known in the world. I’ll rise and I’ll shine and my name will be known by the world.

I still don’t know how…. but it will happen.